Weekly Weigh-In - May 5

Okay, so it was a rough couple weeks, but I got through the walk and Aaron's Birthday and it wasn't so bad. May continues to be a rough month in general, but I have until the 31st before I get hit by the anniversary of his death. I think in certain aspects I am doing better than last year and some are worse. I seem to be more weepy this year, BUT this is the first year in a couple that I have not been on meds. I do have a herbal supplement that my chiropractor recommended that does help a lot and I can take it only when needed so that is good. On the plus side on Aaron's birthday after going to the memorial garden where his ashes were put and then out to lunch I actually did something for ME and went to the gym. That is something I can PROMISE you I have never done in the past and it actually felt very good. I am glad to be able to say that on May 31st (the anniversary of his death) I am going to be on vacation at the beach no less and it should be a very nice peaceful place to be.

Anyway, back to the subject at hand. I had a small bit of a plateau and small gain during the past two weeks, BUT thankfully this week I am right back on track! In fact I lost 5 POUNDS this week. I really needed that. I was feeling pretty down on myself and that focused me right in again - so woo hoo for hard work and good timing. Hopefully the losing keeps coming.

Weekly Weigh In - April 22

Well, my first 12-weeks of the program are officially up. Now for the grand tally...I have lost 28 lbs. and 6% body fat. NOT TO SHABBY! My reward...a new work out program - what else! For all your hard work....here's some HARDER work. Just kidding. I am looking forward to it. Starting this week I am doing 5 weight workouts per week and at LEAST 6 cardio. I know you are all SO jealous. The catch with the weights is that is is one body part per day so it should not take me as long...good right? Sure, but because my weights won't take as long I am expected to up my cardio. Phew....I am tired just thinking about it.

So now I am officially on my 2nd 12 week session. We set a goal of another 30 lbs and 8% more body fat. If I make that goal I will be in the acceptable range for body fat. AMAZING! I know I can do this. I can taste it...(Wait does that cost me calories???)....maybe I should just SMELL it.

Like Clockwork

Well, it all started up again yesterday. It's amazing how I can actually forget what it feels like. My mom reminded me that every year for the past 2 years it starts right around the 15-16. The 16th is when I started getting sick and it seems that my body does not want to let me forget it. It's not like I am in a full on depression my comes in other forms. I get crabby and FORGETFUL!!! That's my first clue is the forgetfulness. Yesterday I left the house sans lunch, purse AND sneakers (which I did not realize until I got to the gym and got changed). At that point I had pretty much had enough of everything and opted to go home and have some "me" time. I know I made the correct decision. I feel MUCH better today.

I am getting myself back on track here and as much as I'd like to eat chocolate and go home and curl up on the couch at the end of the day I am not going to do it. I am going to power through all of this and keep on my routine, because I know I can this year. I don't think I could have said that the past two years - so I guess that is progress.

Weekly Weigh In - Catching up

Okay, so I did not weigh in today (thank goodness)...but I have not posted after my last two. I am slacking I know. So the last two weeks resulted in a 2 pound loss and then a 1.5 pound loss. I am sitting right at 29.5 pounds lost. I was hoping that this week I would hit 30, but I have a feeling Easter may have different plans in store for me. I did really good up until Friday. Decided to take a little break on Saturday and then started getting back on track on Sunday (notice I said STARTED!). Regardless, today I am back baby.

It reminds me of what a previous Weight Watchers leader once said. "It's a holiDAY...not a holiWEEK." But it was HOLY week which could be mistaken for holiWEEK....I digress. I really only had about 1.5 days "off track", but my off track now is a LOT different than previous off track. I used to get off track and head straight for a derailment. Not this time. Full focus starts again today.

Still heading into a very emotional time of year (see Baby on Your Six blog). I have been okay so far, but feel like I am waiting for that major breakdown. It's almost starting to feel weird that it hasn't come yet. I guess that is a good thing. Not that this makes a whole lot of sense to anyone but me (or those that have been there), but sometimes me NOT being upset makes me MORE upset. Ugh! I can't win. But, I am doing this without meds this year and feeling better about myself overall. Hopefully the exercise will continue to be my way to get my emotions out.

Weekly Weigh In March 23

Well, due to some scheduling conflicts etc. I had to reschedule my normal Tuesday meeting with my trainer and meet him on Monday. I weighed in last night and was down another pound. Good news. The "bad" news...he think we need to "mix it up and shock my body" so that we really get it moving again. I am 99% on board to (I'll get to the other 1% soon). I was actually right on the same page as him. In fact last week I *drumroll please* started running. A word I never acutally thought I would say. I thought running was worse than those 4-letter words. Anyway, he told me last night that he was actually going to broach the "R" word with me and was thrilled I had already started. I am his star pupil (he told me so and I will give you his number to confirm if you don't believe me!!! :-) It's....okay just kidding). So this week coming up is all about shaking things up.

As for the 1% that I am not quite on board with....he wants me to try one morning a week (for now) getting up early and doing my cardio in the morning. Ummm....yeah. That means I would need to get up by 5:15 - get to the gym by 5:30 - back home by 6:25 - eat, shower and leave for work. Here's the thing...I am SO not a morning person (ask my husband - I will give you HIS number to). I am just not. But I am going to try it. Tomorrow morning in fact. All because I have a March of Dimes meeting tomorrow night....so me getting up early is for a good cause - Right? RIGHT!? More tomorrow on how it goes. Wish me luck!

Weekly Weigh-In

Well this week was better...much better. I am down 3 pounds and that means I am down 21 pounds total. Yay! So this week I will be posting more again. Last week I was in a bit of a funk and it was partly because OBSESSED with the scale. I mean seriously, any time I was near our bathroom I was stepping on the darn thing. I don't know why. All that does is screw with your head. It is amazing in one day how much your weight can fluctuate. Some days I swear it was 5 pounds or more. I am going to put it in the closet and hide it. I really am.

I really got into this season of "The Biggest Loser" and it is such a great show. I mean those people work out 8 hour a day and the past 2 weeks someone has gained a pound or more...inexplicably. It does not make sense. That is why you need to step back and think about how you feel. I feel better than I have in a long time and I am ready to continue this journey.

Weekly Weigh-In

Okay, so it's a little later than normal. That's because it was not exactly the weigh in that I was expecting. I was up one pound. Which was very frustrating because I worked out as like normal and was good about eating. I was very disappointed...in fact I cried. CRIED?! You may say. Yes, I will admit it. At my appointment, we were talking. See, I had just gotten my...monthly "gift"...that day. We were pretty sure that is what caused the gain...that is what I also believe caused the CRYING. Regardless, by the end of the appointment I was over it more or less and ready to move on to a new week. Looking forward to a better one next week for sure.