tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76524793808584007332024-02-08T00:18:31.202-05:00Nikki's Weighing InHello, my name is Nikki and I need to lose weight. Maybe it's not officially a 12-step program, but it probably could be. I am working on it and doing a program that I started in late January 2009. I am determined to do this.Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.comBlogger47125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-65494465966082342462010-08-25T13:00:00.000-04:002010-08-26T13:32:48.633-04:00Wednesday Weigh-in - PostponedSomehow this week got away from me. I am not sure why. It's been a bit of a wonky week. Mom and Dad had to go out of town for my great-aunt's memorial service. I only worked half a day on Monday and then worked a couple hours at home. Everything has just been off schedule. Anyway, I forgot to weigh in this morning and then forgot to weigh in right after work and then we went to the fair. I was NOT weighing in AFTER the fair (be honest would YOU???)<br /><br />Anyway, I do think it's okay to take off a week here and there and have considered doing bi-weekly weigh-<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">in's</span>. I may have mentioned this before, but I am a VERY sensitive to feedback (good AND bad). This is why I CANNOT do daily weigh-ins. If I have a good weigh in I stay very motivated and am happy. If I have 1 bad one I decide to just give up. Not good. I will take a look tonight, but may not count it as official. That's the other thing. It's better if it's "Not official" ...and yes I know only I can decide that it's official or not. Ugh! I feel like I am always pulling tricks on my brain. Whatever works I guess.<br /><br />We did walk out to the fair tonight which was a positive - especially since I did not get my workout in. Now I <strong>have </strong>to do Thursday - Sunday, but I think I can handle that. I post Thursday thoughts Thursday evening and give a quick "Unofficial" weight report ;-)Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-63705302882091257572010-08-24T12:12:00.001-04:002010-08-25T13:18:42.871-04:00Tuesday Accountability.Well, this post is a little different since I am missing last Tuesday and my goals are missing from last week. I am just going to give some general statements on my accountability and then make some new goals. <br /><br />I haven't really gotten into doing a daily t0-do list. I need to decide to just do it and not wait until I have things to do. There is always something to do. Even if it's the same list everyday, go to work, workout, straighten up etc. I am going to make this a goal again. In general things are going well, but I start to fall into a comfortable zone and then sometimes find things starting to slip BACK in. I need to watch that. <br /><br />So my goals for this week:<br />1. Give the To-DO list a serious shot. Make one daily. <br />2. Workouts - get them all in. <br />3. NO SODA- you really would be amazed how quickly this creeps back in. Darn soda. <br />4. One morning walk. Just one - try it - maybe you'll <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">liiiiiiike</span> it.Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-32743708355336505412010-08-23T13:02:00.001-04:002010-08-25T13:10:44.187-04:00Monday - This Blog has a case of the MondaysUgh! So, I lost a Monday - Thursday last week. Something weird was going on with Blogger. I contacted them. They were going to recover Friday's post and get today's up eventually. I think it should all be fixed. What a pain. Oh well, I know I don't have THAT many readers anyway, this is all really for my own healing.<br /><br />Anyway, the weekend was great. We had a wonderful time with friends and I really did not overdue it on the junk food this week. In fact we took a long walk around the campus and then on Sunday morning I got up and worked out BEFORE we went out for lunch. I find the more I can do to just get me in a health mindset from the very beginning of the day the better the whole day goes. I think I could benefit greatly from getting up early to exercise, but I am SO not a morning person. I am debating even just trying for a 20-30 minute walk 2-3 times a week in the morning. Something I need to think about a little longer.<br /><br />Well, here's to a good week!<br /><br />ETA: I did not feel great today. I had something weird going on with my eye and was very light sensitive. I came home from work a little early. It took me until 8:30 to decide to go do my workout, but I did and that was a huge accomplishment for me. Yay!Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-25035388605550225842010-08-20T12:24:00.000-04:002010-08-25T13:01:52.582-04:00Photo Friday - CelebrationsLots to celebrate this weekend. Our 6th wedding anniversary and a reunion with some college friends. I have a plan in place. Saturday lots of fruit and veggies at the reunion and Seafood for our Anniversary and perhaps share a dessert with my honey. CHEERS!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi1nNEM07rYWXxhaIaxx7qYG_nXgFpce75X7hqZoMhJ8vf-1PbkJwtCn3pJNHU3Gep0nRgDsRL7vm5LKPzHSiK5BX3CAa4Xm7tMu1ZSXeAsGLd4d6zc-mdckCe_ilOZd5GMXecMvQQZrPOu/s1600/champagne_toast.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5509393173110866290" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 286px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi1nNEM07rYWXxhaIaxx7qYG_nXgFpce75X7hqZoMhJ8vf-1PbkJwtCn3pJNHU3Gep0nRgDsRL7vm5LKPzHSiK5BX3CAa4Xm7tMu1ZSXeAsGLd4d6zc-mdckCe_ilOZd5GMXecMvQQZrPOu/s320/champagne_toast.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div></div>Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-84877989342298512392010-08-13T12:30:00.000-04:002010-08-13T15:10:31.919-04:00Photo Friday - Just say NO!After my post yesterday I was looking at my journal and realized one bad choice that ALWAYS seems to lead to another is SODA. So, I am really putting all my effort into JUST SAYING NO. The bad thing is I really do just love it sometimes. Maybe sparkling water will satisfy that craving?<br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-my5-tLwY55R5_qXmqncpwQTNHFbDXoVf90TkepnD6eKEk84fPxbsUp-6T8XHjdzOqowm3_iVqVPj4IYPooilnMdhXagOkpfPmsGo8cYmIJve5fQuhiTXco7R2xy4_TOYSelai8R74nnm/s1600/no+soad.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5504973427492213650" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 319px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-my5-tLwY55R5_qXmqncpwQTNHFbDXoVf90TkepnD6eKEk84fPxbsUp-6T8XHjdzOqowm3_iVqVPj4IYPooilnMdhXagOkpfPmsGo8cYmIJve5fQuhiTXco7R2xy4_TOYSelai8R74nnm/s320/no+soad.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div></div>Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-5089062744402683082010-08-12T12:30:00.000-04:002010-08-13T15:04:21.866-04:00Thursday Thoughts - One good choice leads to another - and vice versaThere is a commercial on television right now where they talk about how "one good choice leads to another." I am not sure who it is for, but I know they show a woman eating a healthy breakfast vs. grabbing a doughnut and then the choices the rest of the day. The healthy breakfast leads to a salad for lunch, a run after work and a good sensible dinner. The doughnut leads to pizza at lunch, drinks after work and chips on the couch while watch <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">tv</span>...or something like that. You get the picture, right?<br /><br />That commercial really struck a cord with me and since I am <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">journaling</span> my food, I am going to really pay attention to choices that lead to better/worse choices. I think it could be interesting.Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-74265900508930458042010-08-11T12:30:00.000-04:002010-08-13T14:53:51.231-04:00Wednesday Weigh In - Baby Steps.Well, today was my weekly weigh in. Officially I am down 4 lbs. I was thinking to myself after weighing-in. Four down - TOO more to go. Then I was sad that was my first thought. 4 lbs. is something to be proud of. I know others on the weight loss journey that would be thrilled to have a 4 pound weight loss. So, I had an idea that I got from my friend. Don't worry about the BIG picture. Just focus on losing 10 pounds. Then I can loose 10 lbs as many times as I need or want to. Once I do it once, I'll just start over. It seems much less daunting. <br /><br />It's kind of crazy to me how much is involved in losing weight. It's part will power, part math (calories in vs. calories out), a lot psychological, part physical. It really takes a lot of time a commitment.Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-34279067142157807122010-08-10T12:00:00.000-04:002010-08-10T13:37:23.147-04:00Accountability Tuesday - Making a list and checking it twice<em>Please note: yes, 3 postings came up today. Friday, Monday and Today. I was posting them incorrectly. It's all fixed now.</em><br /><em></em><br />So below is my list from last week - notes on how I did are in red. <br /><br />1. Keep a food journal - every day. I can't expect to succeed if I don't know exactly what I am eating. <strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Not great. I made good choices and measured portions, but didn't write it all down. Journaled 2 days. Needs Improvement.</span></strong><br /><br />2. Think long and hard before I eat anything that is not on my plan and make it a conscience decision - not a random choice. Make the appropriate adjustments. <strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">On a scale of 1 to 10 I give myself a 7 on this. I am definitely becoming more conscious. I would have previously given myself a 5 or below depending on the week, so I count this a success. </span></strong><br /><br />3. Make a plan for camping this weekend. The food issue is SOMEWHAT out of my hands - but I can control portions and take some fruit etc. with me to make sure I stay on track as best I can - offset any fall backs with a walk or a swim. <strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">My plan was to take produce and I did. I also got in some swimming and a couple walks. I think I did pretty well. S'mores are still evil. I would give myself 7/10 on this as well. Next time will be better.</span></strong><br /><br />4. Get it all of my workouts and complete week one of Turbo Jam <strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">I give myself a gold star in this. Got it all done. Woo hoo. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span></strong><br /><span style="color:#000000;">So for this week. Here are my goals.</span><br /><br />1. Journal every day. Food journal and my other normal journal. This is very VERY important to this process. This will be a perma-goal. <br /><br />2. Get all my workouts in. Complete week 2 of turbo jam and do at least one bonus workout on the weekend. Get up early and walk at least 2 mornings during the week.<br /><br />3. Make a daily to-do list. I have heard this can be a very motivation tool. I would like to give in a try.Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-45535823534673206012010-08-09T12:00:00.000-04:002010-08-10T13:21:23.815-04:00Manic Monday - Weekends...always a challengeWhy do weekends always have to be such a challenge. I will fully acknowledge that they are great fun and what I look forward to all week, but man, they just get me so out of sync. I think summer weekends are even worse. We just seem to do so much more over the summer. Vacations, camping etc. Everyone thinks summer is this wonderful time to loose weight but, I do not think that is the case. In fact I know I read an article about how it is decidedly NOT the case. Summertime means vacations, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">ice cream</span>, camping, picnics, parties, cold beer etc.<br /><br />I guess when it comes right down to it, it's just hard work in general. No time of year is any easier than another. It's just a mind set. I need to just make my mind up and follow Nike's advice - Just DO it! That's what I'm going to do this week - Just do it. If I'm really good it will just <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">catapult</span> me right through the weekend.Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-41492405139763589542010-08-06T12:00:00.000-04:002010-08-10T13:14:54.976-04:00Photo Friday - A camping we will go<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtLT38XSmN0Jv0DYQ4O659SnLS90PbXsB6J0xx0DL7aCpnDcG5OjzlYhdqzqNBj1QlpOyxCCVs1kyJYWsvCMlk-S9b87nx5ZdHTvd2WlG3mxU1i2LNebgAg3zMAsmqjYwU_yuvlVF9TF67/s1600/smore.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5503830430305642786" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtLT38XSmN0Jv0DYQ4O659SnLS90PbXsB6J0xx0DL7aCpnDcG5OjzlYhdqzqNBj1QlpOyxCCVs1kyJYWsvCMlk-S9b87nx5ZdHTvd2WlG3mxU1i2LNebgAg3zMAsmqjYwU_yuvlVF9TF67/s320/smore.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>So we're getting ready to go camping. Maybe if I look at this picture enough I can convince myself that one of these babies is enough. I need a healthy alternative to s'mores :-) </div>Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-66137338912232542812010-08-05T13:04:00.004-04:002010-08-05T13:21:14.190-04:00Thursday Thoughts - It's funny how these things happen<em>A slight deviation from weight loss per say, but I think this may be a "Jillian Michael's moment for me...you know when you realize what' s been bothering you for so long, you didn't even know what it was.</em><br /><em></em><br />So, about 2 weeks ago I was having what I will call a "Strong Moment" and I pulled out Aaron's scrapbook with the intention of finishing it. I have been about 8 pages from finishing for about a year and a half. I was having a hard time finishing. How do you scrapbook a death? A life cut short. But I got it out and worked on it. Then <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">VBS</span> week came and I was busy. So last night, after my appointment with my therapist I decided to finish it. It had already been an emotional couple of days for me so I figured I might as well just go for it. August 4<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">th</span> was Aaron's original due date and while I don't think about that date too much, it sometimes creeps up on me.<br /><br />So, last night I finished....and I cried. I now have this beautiful think that I made that tells the story of his life - and his death - the WHOLE story. I didn't take to time to look through it from cover to cover yet (it was late and I wanted to wait until today to do that), but I know what I put in it. As I said to Josh, it made me realize something. Everything that happened, to me and to him happened the only way it could happen. I did ALL I could do for him, while I was pregnant and afterwards. The doctors did all they could do for him (and for me). The nurses did all they could do. Our friends and family sent us SO much love and support. Everyone gave all they could give. There truly was nothing I could have done. All the guilt, the what <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">ifs</span>....I realized it doesn't matter...never really did I guess (but I think I needed to go through all of that). It is what it is and some really wonderful things have come from that.<br /><br />Feeling for the first time in over 4 years that I can let go of some of the guilt and start to treasure all the memories that I do have and will continue to have in the future (as we continue to do things to honor his memory). He is not physically with us any more, but nobody can ever take away what I do have. I think there is still a bit of a process, but as I wrote in my journal last night...maybe, just maybe I can start to truly like myself again.Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-90405437929914117492010-08-04T12:26:00.002-04:002010-08-04T12:35:35.297-04:00Weekly Weigh-In - the scale - weight loss tool or pure evil?So, since I am just getting into this tonight when I get home I will be doing my first weigh-in. I know kind of where I was a week or so ago, but tonight's number will be my baseline going forward. I am also going to take some basic measurements tonight. Sometimes, when the scale just isn't moving those measurements can be a good motivational tool. Those I probably need to take every month....not weekly so much. <br /><br />So, I go back and forth between hating to weigh in and weighing ever single day. Seems to me a happy medium must be struck. So I will just do it weekly...no more and NO LESS! See when I start working out I seem to think that the weight will just fall right off of me like melting butter....it doesn't seem to work that way though in my experience. When I do weigh in daily there are days that appear to be GREAT and days that one glass of water sends me skyrocketing up a couple pounds. The "false" gains and losses can be maddening. A week seems like a good timeline to at least get the ups and downs and use what you find as a tool. You may occasionally get a bad weigh-in. That is what I need to learn to work past. One bad weigh-in does NOT constitute failure. <br /><br />So, tonight. Me vs. the scale. Maybe this time he and I can be friends...or at least like each other enough to smile and nod when passing each other in the hallway (aka: Bathroom).Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-67738412321102934162010-08-03T12:15:00.000-04:002010-08-03T13:34:37.714-04:00Accountability Tuesday - Do or do not - there is no try.Well since I just fessed up about what my plan is I don't have much to report this week as far as accountability. I started Turbo Jam last night and will be going home to do night two tonight. One thing I noticed that I do a lot of is saying, "I'm planning on _______". I was thinking about that and I've decided in order for me to be successful I need to QUIT planning and start doing. So for the next week I am not going to "Plan" to do anything. In the words of Yoda, "Do or do not, there is no try". He was a smart little green guy. <br /><br />So, this week I will complete the following goals:<br />1. Keep a food journal - every day. I can't expect to succeed if I don't know exactly what I am eating. <br />2. Think long and hard before I eat anything that is not on my plan and make it a conscience decision - not a random choice. Make the appropriate adjustments.<br />3. Make a plan for camping this weekend. The food issue is SOMEWHAT out of my hands - but I can control portions and take some fruit etc. with me to make sure I stay on track as best I can - offset any fall backs with a walk or a swim. <br />4. Get it all of my workouts and complete week one of Turbo Jam. <br /><br />Now, if only I can convince my stomach that it just had lunch and doesn't need anything else to eat. Ugh! I hate days where I feel like that. I need to stick it out until it's afternoon snack time! (And maybe have that a little early!)Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-27672542718230866492010-08-02T21:49:00.004-04:002010-08-02T22:04:28.613-04:00I'm baaaaaaack...Well, I have been inspired by a friend of mine that is blogging about her weight journey. Those that know me, should know that I am a huge advocate or journaling. It heals the soul I think and keeps you motivated and focused. I do journal nearly daily, but don't want to fixate in there about my weight loss struggles (more than I already do). So, I was going to start over with a new blog and remembered this one. I like it and like the title of it...so I thought I'd just resurrect this one. It helps me to have a topic to write on and I like the way I had this one formatted. Therefore, I will do that. I know I don't have many "readers" and I am okay with that. I may at some point go more "public" with it, but for now I just people I know and trust to read this. <div><br /></div><div>For my reference here are my daily topics...</div><div><br /></div><div>Manic Monday - recap of the weekend. Get focused</div><div>Accountability Tuesday - the good the bad and the ugly. Time to fess up. </div><div>Weekly Weigh-in Wednesday - You may not see the numbers, but I'll give the ups or downs or talk</div><div>Thursday Thoughts - Random thoughts or a weight loss/exercise topic I feel like expounding on. </div><div>Photo Friday - Sum up the week with a photo.</div><div>Weekend Warrior - If I am feeling extra motivated or have any other thoughts.</div><div><br /></div><div>Anyway, so here I am. I'm back. Currently I am doing a nutrition plan developed by my nutritionist. As far as fitness, I started today Turbo Jam (a program I had from year's ago). I want to do P90X which I have and have started, but it is proving to be a HUGE challenge and I enjoy the cardio stuff much more. I am using 1 month of Turbo Jam in preparation for P90X and want to start P90X after Labor Day and finish by mid-December. That will be my Christmas gift to me. Meeting my goals. </div><div><br /></div><div> </div>Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-77917350314344170292009-07-06T13:28:00.002-04:002009-07-06T13:37:39.596-04:00Manic Monday - Needing a break from my weekendsAnother action packed weekend, filled with family and friends. We haven't been out to my in-laws since Easter I believe (we've seen them since then, just haven't been out to visit). It was a very nice weekend. We got out to their house Thursday night after we went to a baseball game. Friday morning I met an ex-co-worker at the gym out there and did <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Bosu</span> and Power Pump (weight lifting). It was one heck of a work out! Friday night we grilled and had a small birthday celebration for my father-in-law (whose birthday is this coming Thursday). Saturday, I met my friend at the gym AGAIN and lifted and did some <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">cardio</span>. How good am I having done 2 workout while out of town. I am SO proud. <br /><br />Saturday afternoon and evening was a picnic and visiting with everyone. I kept myself busy playing ladder golf, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">bocce</span> and washers and tried to stay away from the food to avoid grazing. It was a success. I ate just what I was planning on eating and felt good about that. <br /><br />Sunday we came home again. My plan was go get to the gym that afternoon, but I did fail at that. I was still SO sore from <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Bosu</span> I thought my shoulders were trying to <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">separate</span> from the rest of my body. I was tired and had been fighting a cold, so I decided a break was in order. <br /><br />All in all it was a great weekend and I made good positive choices that I am proud of. Looking forward to the week ahead and a low-key weekend coming up.Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-55758151961433668582009-07-03T13:22:00.000-04:002009-07-06T13:27:46.394-04:00Photo Friday - Happy Fourth<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikcJs1VePEzlOP6hpqdPEXbdOhRvSBX7pOAM8_wauG4TyLsO1hZVDNunLMzcR_14pfLqLbbePwHymDIp0XozSNjdKrZUQ7sY1vGJwuK2KtIDPrcs8hfG5rJ93T5ZAWcg4HXGUFZt6fzKJo/s1600-h/bosu.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikcJs1VePEzlOP6hpqdPEXbdOhRvSBX7pOAM8_wauG4TyLsO1hZVDNunLMzcR_14pfLqLbbePwHymDIp0XozSNjdKrZUQ7sY1vGJwuK2KtIDPrcs8hfG5rJ93T5ZAWcg4HXGUFZt6fzKJo/s320/bosu.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5355399648233881378" border="0" /></a>I did a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Bosu</span> class today with a past co-worker and friend. It's been years since I did <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Bosu</span>. I thought since I have been working out regularly I would be find. It kicked my ass! I think to be successful at <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Bosu</span> you need to be the age of the girls in the above photo. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">OUCHIE</span>!Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-69751292609775047932009-07-02T13:13:00.001-04:002009-07-06T13:22:29.994-04:00Thursday Thoughts - Mostly non-weight/diet relatedI am becoming darn near obsessed with the scale and making sure it's moving. This tends to be NOT good. I think about it a lot anyway...I just don't need to think of it non-stop. So here are my thoughts today and I am keeping it non-weight/diet related...<br /><br />1. I am so ready for a nice 3-day weekend and some time away. Hoping it gives me so time to not worry about everything. <br />2. I often wished we owned instead of renting - that was until today when I found out they need to replace our A/C unit and I found out how much one of those things cost. OUCH! Glad it's not my expense for once :-)<br />3. We are currently working reduced hours at work (not working Fridays and NOT getting paid). It sucks for sure, but with some careful budgeting and planning I have made it work just fine and I have to say, there could be worse things that Fridays off during the summer. Look, if nothing else I am trying to stay somewhat positive about all of this. With Josh laid off and me on reduced hours/pay we have gotten to spend more time together and I am having a lot of fun with him. We are finding free or very low cost ways to entertain ourselves.<br />4. My goal for the week is to be more positive in general. I am surrounded by some very negative people in my <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">professional</span> life and I am sick of it quite frankly. I figure if I try to be more positive *see #3* maybe I can give off positive vibes and not have so much negativity in my life. <br /><br />That's all! :-)Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-10222607911210712192009-07-01T09:33:00.002-04:002009-07-02T09:39:24.316-04:00Weekly Weigh In - More of the sameThis week's weigh in reminded me of "The Facts of Life"...<span style="font-style: italic;">You take the good, you take the bad, you take them both and there you have The Facts of Life, The Facts of Life. <span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><br /><span style="font-style: italic;"><br /><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span>Now, I am not one to poo poo any sort of weight loss and I was down a half pound...I am still calling that the bad for this time. I worked HARD last week. The good being that in two weeks I was down 1.2% body fat, which means I really, truly am gaining muscle...which of course weighs more than fat. So I am hoping that starts to translate into WEIGHT LOSS!!! I am trying so hard not to become frustrated and while I have my moments I am holding my own I think. I have just determined no matter how damn stubborn that fat is, I am going to OUT stubborn in. <br /><br />TAKE THAT FAT!!!<span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><br /></span><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"></span></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span>Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-58509612574781555532009-06-29T10:08:00.001-04:002009-06-30T10:17:58.589-04:00Manic Monday - Bachelors and brewsAgain, quick explanation....my plan on Monday's is to do a weekend recap and get my focus set for the week. <br /><br />So, this weekend I got to participate in a time honored tradition of a bachelor party (no -<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">ette</span>, this was a party for my best male friend and we wanted me to come along). I had been looking forward to this as the group of guys we were going with included my hubby, the bachelors brother and several college friends. There were 7 of us all of whom I have known for better than 10 years. All week I was so focused on eating everything correctly and working out hard because any "cheating" that I was going to do was going to be done with beer on Saturday night. <br /><br />It was a good weekend. Other than the night of drinking I did fine. Luckily for me, Sunday I was tired, but otherwise feeling up to snuff (<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">ie</span>: no hangover). I can't say as much for the rest of the group. Even before hitting the bars we had a good dinner and I got a nice fresh vegetarian entree....once again figuring all calories spent would be best spent on beer. <br /><br />Life lesson #??? and note to stuff...you can enjoy these fun little life events (parties, weddings, etc.) and live like a normal person. As long as you make it an isolated incident and get back on track again. Make a plan and stick to it.Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-84600576638876580892009-06-26T09:49:00.003-04:002009-06-30T10:08:20.689-04:00Photo Friday<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyfrQUbjHgD-nyuaDxoAQkeZaeGiMhyphenhyphenSBrM-MeAGdOKciWA518xnpkDx_MLrRhbBYmWp4NSfYGMdLmxxRyA7z03i-Y9fX3oVksasY3S89y6EUYRaXUYLK3gyFIqtYDjOjjfB9RFrOZIXpy/s1600-h/rocky-victory.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 215px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyfrQUbjHgD-nyuaDxoAQkeZaeGiMhyphenhyphenSBrM-MeAGdOKciWA518xnpkDx_MLrRhbBYmWp4NSfYGMdLmxxRyA7z03i-Y9fX3oVksasY3S89y6EUYRaXUYLK3gyFIqtYDjOjjfB9RFrOZIXpy/s320/rocky-victory.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5353118179930260610" border="0" /></a><br />So, in keeping with my new theme days I am going to post photos on Fridays that sum up my week in just a few words.<br /><br />This week I was very proud of myself and I feel empowered and thus I give you...Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-33695054205060497622009-06-25T13:49:00.000-04:002009-06-25T14:01:31.837-04:00Thursday ThoughtsIn an effort to try to post more, (because: a). It keeps be motivated and b). I am a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">scrapbooker</span> and like to remember things. Since I would probably not ever do a diet scrapbook, this will be my way of remembering this journey), I am trying to post more than just one time a week. Sometimes I have things to say and other times there is just not a lot going on. So Thursday is going to be my day for just random observations - notes to self if you will. Maybe I can come up with other clever things to do other days of the week. We'll see. Anyway, without any further ado...my <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Thursday</span> thoughts:<br /><br />1. I am wearing a t-shirt today (yes I can wear t-shirts to work, i normally don't, but there are 2 of us here today and no clients coming in). It is a size lower that what I normally wear. It is tighter than what I normally wear (not too tight though) and I actually am comfortable and I like the way it looks on me. Note to self: Buy clothes that fit tighter - it allows me and others to see my progress better than hiding in my clothes :-)<br /><br />2. I think I am actually losing some belly (which is why #1 might be <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">occurring</span> as well). That is a very hard thing to judge. I need to take another progress picture soon. When I loose 5 more lbs I will do just that (in my tighter fitting clothing)<br /><br />3. I feel really good right now. Motivated again and out of the May fog that seems to be an annual <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">occurrence</span>. Eating all my meals and snacks and doing so properly. I like this feeling. It is a feeling of being in control of me. Even today after only getting maybe 3.5 hours of sleep I feel good and I am still going to the gym. <br /><br />4. Being in control of me and what food enters me translates into being control of other things in my life - also a contributing factor to number 3. <br /><br />I think that's all my thoughts...for this week at least. Can't give 'em all away at one time!Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-43404085716915033742009-06-24T12:30:00.000-04:002009-06-24T12:52:42.961-04:00Weekly Weigh-InLast night was my appointment. After making some changes this past week in some of what I ate and the way in which I was working out I was please. Down 2 pounds. Better...much better. Heck at this point I will take any loss I can get. I am really REALLY sick of bouncing around and going back and forth. Some more changes this week. Apparently I need to keep my body guessing. This week I am doing a "Heavy Week" as my trainer called it. I am going to add weight to everything and see how well I can do. I predict muscle soreness. <br /><br />I found a good article on <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">WebMD</span> about moving through a weight loss plateau. <a href="http://http://www.webmd.com/diet/features/10-ways-to-move-beyond-a-weight-loss-plateau">http://www.webmd.com/diet/features/10-ways-to-move-beyond-a-weight-loss-plateau</a><br />Not that I have a lot a readers, but this blog is really more for me and if anyone finds this stuff interesting so be it :-)<br /><br />The good news is (now bare with me this is going to sound weird), I am starting to feel hungry more often again. That normally means my metabolism is starting to hum along again, so <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">yay</span> for that. Hopefully it continues to show. <br /><br />Onward and downward! (Weight Watchers is at least good for their cheesy sayings) :-)Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-63801953569730886732009-06-18T12:47:00.000-04:002009-06-18T13:08:50.648-04:00What have you done today?This season of Biggest Loser is the first season I have watched from start to finish and I LOVED it! I will watch this show from now on for as long as it airs. I wish I would have watched the previous seasons. This morning the theme song popped into my head. I am terrible with remembering words and I was thinking it was <span style="font-style: italic;">"What have you done today to make me feel proud?" </span>I wanted to look up the words to the song and it turns out I was wrong. The chorus is :<br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-style: italic;">What have you done today to make you feel proud?</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;"> It's never too late to try</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;"> What have you done today to make you feel proud?</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;"> You could be so many people</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;"> If you make that break for freedom</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;"> What have you done today to make you feel proud?</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: left;">I think it is funny that I mistook the "you" for "Me" and it makes a huge difference. Also, it is so indicative of probably my <span style="font-style: italic;">major</span> flaw. I think I may have mentioned this before, but I am a <span style="font-style: italic;"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">pleaser</span></span>...I never want anyone upset with me, I don't want to hurt <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">anyone's</span> feelings, I want to do what I think other people want me to do, I don't let others know when I am upset <span style="font-style: italic;">(an issue after you've been through a life altering loss)</span> and I don't like to say "no" to people (don't worry I can "Just Say No" to life harming things...but anything else probably not<span style="font-style: italic;"></span>. <span style="font-style: italic;">*my mom will agree with all of the above - I think she recognizes this more than anybody*</span> This mindset makes me worry, loose sleep and has most definitely lead to weight gain for me. After Aaron's death the one thing I did get a lot better at was saying no. I just learned I couldn't do as much as I used to and I think I still do better with that. I pick and choose the things I really want to do and was thinking that fixed the issue, but the whole need to please thing is still there.<br /><br />Okay, so tangent over and back to my point about the song. I thought the words were <span style="font-style: italic;">"What have you done today, to make me feel proud" </span>when in fact they are <span style="font-style: italic;">"What have you done today, to make YOU feel proud".</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span>As I said before it's a big difference. This whole weight loss thing need to be on MY terms, to make MYSELF feel proud. I don't have to do this to make other people proud. More importantly, I can tell people what I can and can't eat and not just eat whatever they set in front of me. I can make the decisions of what I put in my mouth. I'm not going to rock any boats by refusing to eat something or bringing my own food somewhere. I don't have to go out to <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">restaurants</span> with people...maybe invite them over for a game night instead. I may have said all this before, but I feel like I need to keep reminding myself. <br /><br />Oddly enough a one word misunderstanding may have just given me a major break through. From now on I am going to do something everyday that makes ME feel proud! <br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">My proud moment from yesterday:</span> I ran on the treadmill (alternating walking and running) and then hit the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">elliptical</span> can got 35 min. of <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">cardio</span> in. Even if I got home a little later than normal, Josh was fine waiting for me for dinner and did not mind a bit!</span><br /></div></div>Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-28591467442966877742009-06-17T15:33:00.000-04:002009-06-17T15:44:09.296-04:00Getting my mojo back.So, it's been a lot longer than I have intended between posts. What can I say, it was May. I was in a funk dealing with all the emotions that go along with the late April through early June. I find myself wondering how many years this is going to happen. I guess the answer would be indefinitely. Will it get better? I am sure it will get easier, but it will probably always be there. Starting last week I felt like I was getting glimpses of my "normal" self <span style="font-style: italic;">*insert joke about how NOT normal I am here* </span>After a good night of sleep on Saturday I was feeling like myself again. Josh even noticed right away. It's odd...just as fast as the fog comes over me it can be gone. <br /><br />I kept the eating and exercise up pretty well throughout the month <span style="font-style: italic;">*dare I say I am developing good habits?*</span>. Of course throw a bout of shingles and a vacation into the mix and it's a recipe for disaster. Luckily, I was only a couple pounds up and it is coming off again <span style="font-style: italic;">*hopefully as I type this*</span>. I've been bouncing back and forth, BUT now I have my mojo back and I am ready to rock this thing. According to my trainer last night this funk may have been well timed. He said after so many weeks going at it hard you body will just need a break and I have had some time off (when I had shingles then followed by 1 week of vacation). Both times I got back into it as soon as possible. Regardless, I am <span style="font-style: italic;">BACK</span> baby! <br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-style: italic;">GAME ON!</span></span>Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7652479380858400733.post-5683018469081596382009-05-07T13:17:00.000-04:002009-05-07T13:28:15.150-04:00Weekly Weigh-In - May 5Okay, so it was a rough couple weeks, but I got through the walk and Aaron's Birthday and it wasn't so bad. May continues to be a rough month in general, but I have until the 31st before I get hit by the anniversary of his death. I think in certain aspects I am doing better than last year and some are worse. I seem to be more weepy this year, BUT this is the first year in a couple that I have not been on meds. I do have a herbal supplement that my chiropractor recommended that does help a lot and I can take it only when needed so that is good. On the plus side on Aaron's birthday after going to the memorial garden where his ashes were put and then out to lunch I actually did something for ME and went to the gym. That is something I can PROMISE you I have never done in the past and it actually felt very good. I am glad to be able to say that on May 31st (the anniversary of his death) I am going to be on vacation at the beach no less and it should be a very nice peaceful place to be. <br /><br />Anyway, back to the subject at hand. I had a small bit of a plateau and small gain during the past two weeks, BUT thankfully this week I am right back on track! In fact I lost 5 POUNDS this week. I really needed that. I was feeling pretty down on myself and that focused me right in again - so woo hoo for hard work and good timing. Hopefully the losing keeps coming.Aaron'sMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02535437752449078922noreply@blogger.com2